The idea that I had no right to step into a healing role for others until I was ‘done’ with my own healing has been detrimental in my ability to show up fully. I was riddled with fear that I wasn’t good enough, healed enough, wise enough, and I didn’t have anything of substance to offer.
My fear was that, because I don’t come in a neatly put together package I wasn’t qualified to call myself a healer, herbalist, or practitioner. I had the idea that people who get to call themselves healers are people who didn’t have to go through hardships or traumas because they have their shit figured out already.
Unfortunately, the healing and spiritual communities are riddled with people who take advantage of others in the name of having ‘the truth’ and ‘being able to heal others.’ It’s easy to put a bunch of words together in a beautifully elegant way, dress in white, and call it enlightenment without actually doing the work.
After years of sifting through my own messes, familial patterns, societal messaging, and internal fears/blocks, I’ve come to realize that is exactly what makes a healer qualified - getting in the arena and doing the actual work. I am no where near the end of my healing journey and I don’t claim to have all of the answers. Most of the time, I feel like I don’t really know much. One thing that I do know is no matter how many times I get distracted by fear, self doubt, or insecurity, I am continuously being pulled back to the healing realm. And I now know that there’s no point in waiting for the ‘right time’ to show up, because the ‘right time’ will always be right now, exactly as I am.
I will never be a neatly put together package or reflect the image of the ‘ideal’ healer, and that is okay.
I will continue to show up in my mess, my joys, my healing, and my authentic self.
I will continue to be here, holding space and cheering you on as you take the plunge into your inner work of healing and expansion. We are not meant to do this alone.
You’ve got this!
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